Late-Night Musings

I went to church tonight to hear Mrs. Cindy Winters, the wife of the Maryville pastor murdered last year, speak to our women's ministry. God has truly done incredible things with her -- despite all her pain and grief in the last year, she began Grace and Hope Ministries to help other women who are going through difficult times. To me, this demonstrates a selflessness and strength that could only come from knowing Jesus Christ. Despite all of that, I must admit I hated hearing her testimony! As she spoke, I felt as though I were in her place one year ago, having to hear a nurse tell me that my husband was gone. I hate thinking about that; it is much too painful. But then I began to consider how fleeting life is, how easily I could lose anything and everything I hold dear at any given moment. All I would have left is God; He is the only constant in life. And then the question I had to ask myself was this: Am I cultivating a relationship with God in the here and now that would be strong enough to weather such a disaster? Am I really taking the time to draw near to Him in a way that will strengthen me not only in tragedy but also in the day-to-day? Regardless of circumstances, you and I need Him, even when we feel like we have it together all by ourselves. It's time for us to start living as though He is all we have.